It’s been over 2 years since my first post. Although, Nate and I do not have a child of our own yet, I have felt like God has been telling me that my season is coming soon. I don’t exactly know if that season will give life to a little one, but I feel that He keeps telling me to press on and the press in- that something good is coming.
Last week was National Infertility Awareness Week. I scrolled through the #NIAW hashtag posts and I kept wanting to post something on my social media to bring awareness to this and to my story. But I backed out. I felt ashamed. I didn’t want infertility to be my identity. I didn’t want sympathy comments. I didn’t want the questions. Don’t get me wrong, I love that we have the support of our family and friends, but these were things that I was feeding myself that turned into bigger lies; I’m less of a woman because I can’t get pregnant, something is wrong with me, shame, jealousy. I just kept scrolling despite my feelings. I eventually fed myself truths- God can heal, He can use this struggle, I am not defined by this, I am fearfully and wonderfully made, He holds my life in His hands, He is faithful- and I felt better.
He Keeps His Promises
This past Sunday, while at church as my pastor was praying I heard a baby making cute baby cooing noises not even thinking about my infertility struggle, I was reminded in that very moment that God keeps His promises. That His timing is perfect. I couldn’t help but smile and give Him thanks! I love that He was in the details of that moment.
Psalm 33:4 For the word of the Lord is right and true; he is faithful in all he does.
Psalm 40:1 I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry.
Isaiah 60:22 “At the right time, I, the LORD, will make it happen.”
Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.
Your struggle may look completely different than mine or you may be in the same boat as me. Either way, know that God is real. He’s still in the business of miracles. You may be waiting for a short time or for many years. He is there- in the waiting. You are not defined by your struggle, so don’t let it become your identity.
Press into Him and into His word. Find out what He wants to say to you in your waiting, find out who He says you are. I’m talking to myself here too. Don’t just check reading your bible off your list. Dig deeper into His word. You’re not alone. While waiting for my next season, I am going to start this devotional. I am praying for you and believing with you, while you wait for your season.
Lastly, although I am late to the hashtag party. Here are a few facts to bring awareness to infertility.